There are many things in my head. It just cant get out it stuck in my mind. I have a lot to say but I feel like I lose my power to think and speak clearly. In recent years, Ive been thinking about life. about a good good life. about a good good life. I insist an authentic happiness. Can I get it from life? Lately I thought life is not easy. Sometimes make me ssooooooo powerless.. Ohhhh can we be happy with a more simple way to live a life. Can we be happy with a more simple definition of happiness and life with peace itself.. All I want is to be happy authentically. In past years, I've learned that if we make someone else happy and then your happiness will happen continously. It's like it's like a vicarious moment in my life. Someone's happiness is mine. And I hope my happiness can be someone's too. That is why I am trying so hard to spread the happiness so people can feel it too.. I want to share I want to share. I want to share. I want to share.  I dont feel like a poor everytime I share my happiness.. I dont feel like a poor everytime I share positivity. I singing out my mind. I am singing out my mind right now right now right then right then. I am singing out what have been a conflict in my mind. So let me sing it out my mind..


p.s: This post I wrote spontaneously while sing every words. Many things happened in my mind lately. I can't handle it. All I can do is flight. I remember all the good memories to avoid the thinking. Mostly about fear of life. Not that I consider to end my life but it feels more like I loose faith in my own dream. I fear for the uncertainty. I fear for the complexity. As simple as I want to marry this guy but my parents don't like him or afraid I won't be happy with him, to be precise. I love this guy but I know my parents are right. WHAT A DILEMMA! I faced so many dilemma lately. Everything just seems blurred. I don't know why. Like fog get in my way. So, please, let me post this. This one of my tension release tricks. So, I sing my mind out.

Yeah. I do feel better.