SORT OF TOO EARLY THINGY

I don't know, it is getting more obvious each day.
The lure of marriage hypnotize me lately. Yeah I know it's kinda too early (the truth is I just finished my national examination) but I was like "It's good to have your own wedding plan earlier. Make everything easier on the D-day". Silly. Yes.

I just can't help myself to imagine how the wedding goes, how the dress looks like, and absolutely how my hubby will looks like :p. Go on a date with my hubby just like a new teen couple not like a new wedcouple. Done many things with him, from hilarious,silly,ridiculous thingy to the most romantic scenes in my life with him. HAHAHA.

I just can't help myself to imagine how it feels truly fall in love with someone else. Like you have no reason to love him. You just do. How someone you always think will never choose you and stuck on you suddenly died when you are not there with him. How someone finally said "I don't know, whenever you ain't here like I have no reason to live".

I'm pretty sure I will find him. Soon or not I know he's the one who will always bring happiness to me each day.

IT IS EXCITING WHEN YOU FIND OUT YOUR MOM THINKS THAT YOUR CRUSH IS CUTE.IT HAPPENS TO ME.

I read it while looking at the mirror

 

 

In love...

when you always do anything to attract him.

when you always want to make him smile with stupid action.

when you always want to red-handed him take a sneak peek at you.

when you finally freeze and blushing after he smiles at you.

when you no longer care about his appearance. 

when you like how his brain work harder than his muscle.

when you finally always want to meet him in every occasion.
when you finally got him wandering on your mind.

madness

"be a trial" = "be you a tea full"

read it carefully :)

TOUGH

ini yang sebenernya gue rasakan...

I try to be tough as I knew I'm facing you.

Almost 2 years ago as I knew it would be hard.

We're like on and off and on and off.

It's fun in your own way.

It's hurt in my own way.

I should not let it. But it keeps flowing.

I should not face it. But it keeps showing. 

And today, when it fades, it is off, 

you turn it on. And you know what?

That's rude.

I try to be tough as I thought we better this way.

I am not interest being one of them. 

Sink into your music and think:

'I'm right for you'

'I'm the one who make you ...'

'I'm only and nobody could get damn of it'

Because all I want is, if your last request is me,

wait for you at the end of the altar.

VIVA LA 2011 (part III)

9. September

Bulan ini bulan yang bersemangat buat gue, 3 bulan jadi kelas senior makin mengukuhkan niat gue buat dapetin PTN terutama UI. Tapi, pemilihan jurusan itu dilema besar. Dan sekarang gue bingung,  mimpi siapa yang ingin gue wujudkan. Mimpi gue atau mimpi mereka. Frustrating. 

10. Oktober

Nothing happen siih. Semua berjalan baik2 aja. Tapi rolling tempat duduk itu gaenak. Bener2 bermasalah buat gue. Nilai gue….gak terlalu baik :( jadi sedikit pesimis masalah PTN. Bendors juga agak sedikit bermasalah bulan ini. Agak sedikit renggang. I always want to cry every single day of this month. Guys..I really really need you :(

11. November

Masih sibuk banget ngurusin SPACE 49, belum lagi sekolah, BTA, mid-semester, bimbel SG, macem2 lah pokoknya. Padet banget. Dan jujur menjadi panitia SPACE sangat menyita waktu gue. Capek banget. Masalah banyak banget yang dating. Ga tanggung2. Gue aja sampe hampir ribut sama alumni (cowo pula -_-) Cuma entah gimana gue optimis banget sama panitia kalo bisa melakukan yang terbaik :D. Dan Alhamdulillah banget acara berjalan lancer plus sukses. Kompetisi berjalan lancer. Dan pensinya? LUAR BIASAAAAAA!!!! Hahaha sumpah gue seneeeenggg bangetttttt. LOVE YOU CREW SPACE 2011!!

12. Desember

Nilai semester gue asli jelek. Ga hanya gue, banyak temen2 gue yang lebih pinter pada jelek semua. Bukannya nyari temen sih. Selamat lah mereka yang make bantuan. Nilainya luar biasa. Gue Cuma dapet 20 besar. (tapi masih ada kesempatan undangan sih..) Dibalik yang jelek2 itu…ada yang seru lagi nihhhh.

KOLASE TERAKHIR ANGKATAN GUE!!!

Gausah ditanya deh hebohnya gimana. Pake ada ribut antar angkatan pula. Gue akuin sih, emang juniornya juga nyolotin. Tapi, seharusnya kita angkatan paling senior jangan terpancing dan provokatif. Tapi pada akhirnya damai kok J Pokoknya ini kolase terhebat gue!!! 2012 ajiibbb parrrrah! Kompaknya Manahan banget! Bakal kangen banget sama momen2 kayak gini. Soooo high school-ish. LOVE YOU 49 2012!! Angkatan 30!!!! 

(karena facebook lagi eror, gue bakal post ulang foto2 kolase kemaren)

jadi inilah akhir cerita di tahun ini. gue udah melalui banyaaaak banget hal yang luar biasa menantang. tahun ini gue makin dewasa. semua yang tejadi membuat gue semakin dewasa. so, semoga tahun depan bakal lebih baik dari tahun ini!!! yihayyyyyyyyyyy I'M THE NEXT YELLOW JACKET GENERATION!!! bye bye 2011! see ya 2012!! yihayyyyy